letting go

I feel really strongly this morning after days of crying out & being convicted...

It's time to let go.

Not give up, not run away from...but let go of something very precious to me. It's time to put it in God's capable hands.

To be honest, He told me to let go awhile ago. And because I didn't fully, I've been having a pretty miserable time these past few weeks. To be even more honest, I look at this situation and I really don't know HOW I'm gonna let go, or IF I can. It breaks my heart...which is fully engaged in this. It's gonna be really hard. It'll definitely be a process.

But I also know that this is not for forever. This is not the end. It's just a time to give up control and let God take over. And not worry unnecessarily about how He's gonna work, or what the end will be.

I know I'm His mouthpiece. And I feel He's calling me to be silent. How difficult is that!? But even tho I struggle with this concept in my life, I HAVE to be sure that He has something better in mind for me. That when I let go of this, it will just free my grip to take hold of something new, and better, and perfect for me. This is SO HARD for me to believe at this point in my life! But I will humbly trust..and hope....and yes, grieve a little. (Or a LOT!!)

I trust His wisdom. I trust His plan. And I'm just gonna keep saying that over & over again till it sinks into my heart...

and slowly release my grasp...