days like this

On days like this I really wonder. Feeling so much on the outside looking in. I gotta re-evaluate things & think about if what I do even makes a difference, or if I'm wasting my time.
Quiet times are hard. Silence leaves me empty. Dry seasons are so discouraging. And I pray for answers...but I get mixed messages.
It's hard to discern between "right" and "wrong." It's hard to figure out what to hold onto and what to walk away from. And I know in my heart that I'm in way too deep. I don't think I could ever be strong enough to walk away. And do I even need to? Are those the whispered lies of the enemy, or the still small voice of my Heavenly Father?
What is unhealthy & what is safe? Am I playing along or just being played? Is there a PURPOSE in hanging on? I DESPERATELY need to know. I'm weary. I'm exhausted from this.
Maybe I'd move on if I had somewhere to go.
And then I find this....
"Nothing is a waste of time if you use the experience wisely." -Auguste Rodin