A Million Chances

Somehow I always give you another chance. It's always been that way. No matter how much it hurts, how much I get broken, just give me a lil time and I'm hopeful again. Don't know why....except that my heart is stuck. Totally stuck with you. It refuses to let go, refuses to step back, refuses to give up on you. It's basically IN me to be forever loyal. I guess "Love always," so long ago, meant something. And even when all outward signs seem to show my absence, inside I am grieving the loss of what I know...this "you" I know. The part no one else understands...or knows about. When I seem so tough, like I don't care at all, like I'm not even bothered...inside I am begging you to break through that wall of protection & drag "me" out to hear what I really feel. Wow how scary that would be. How deeply overwhelming. Even for me. So basically here I stay....protected, but empty. Still waiting, hoping. And still...never giving up. And giving you yet another chance.