overwhelmed

I am overwhelmed. I was going along, doing fine...forgetting...then BOOM.

It invaded me again.

Problem is, I can't figure out if this is a good thing or a bad thing.

God, please make sense of this. Heal my wounded heart. Give me the answers I need. Something has to give soon. Or I fear I'll go crazy.

I can't walk away. I can't pretend anymore. I'm haunted. It hurts. And I need Your help. I COMPLETELY give up.

Show me meaning in this...or please end it...

I am ready for the truth.