Wow I haven't blogged in awhile...guess I got sick of the whole "blog" thing pretty quickly. ;) I have had way too much on my mind and on my plate lately, so although I probably could've written about many numerous things, I chose to keep them to myself. Thing is, the enemy has been playing with my mind FAR too much lately & I'm fed up with it. I'm sick of the lies, tired of the attacks. Today was the last straw. I've been working out consistently for the past 5 weeks or so, hardcore!! I've been exercising pretty regularly for over ten years now, for weight loss, but my weight had creeped back up a lil bit so I finally bit the bullet & went back to my ole school KILLER workouts to kick off these extra pounds that I HATE! Well I happen to hate exercise, always have. I never get up & ask myself if I wanna exercise, cuz my answer will always be NO!! I just get up & do it to get it over with. Well today I let myself ask the question, and my answer was no, and I ALMOST listened. I entertained the lies the enemy has been throwing at me lately..."what's the point...this isn't working...you always try & fail...why work so hard??...it's not worth it....just go back to bed & wallow in your loser-ness." (Yeah he makes up dumb words!!) Well I knew what that would lead to. Me being depressed & feeling like a failure ALL DAY & I was NOT gonna do that! I grabbed onto God's strength, (cuz I had NONE of my own left!) and got up on the treddie & just DID it. And now I'm sitting here sweaty & very proud. Gosh there's no way I could do this without Him. All the weight I lost years ago, and my efforts to get this lil bit back off now, are all by His grace & strength alone. I know why the enemy is wanting to get me to quit. Cuz I don't just run on the treddie. It's my time with the Lord, every day....worshipping, praising, praying(my powerful prayers, which of COURSE the enemy hates!!)...when I run, I feel His presence in a way I never do anywhere else...it makes a huge difference in my day. And when I don't do it, I can FEEL it, believe me, both in my body AND my spirit.

All this to say, I am NOT letting the enemy mess with me anymore. His lies have been relentless....."you're no good....this isn't gonna work out...you're gonna be disappointed again....you're gonna be rejected....others get blessed, but not you...you will never have anything good...everyone else is better than you...God will never give you what you truly desire...you are in this mess & it's all your fault!" Yeah, stuff like that. I know why, too...it's because God has me set up for a huge victory, and WOW God is pressing me too, He's working on me so hard that it's overwhelming sometimes. But to whom much is given, much is required. And He is blessing me with a LOT and leading me in to even greater things. I declare that right now!! So, NO MORE, stupid devil! You can no longer have your way with me or anyone else that I love!!! STEP OFF!!!