It's weird how you can connect so closely with people...yet are never permitted beyond the outskirts of their lives. I mean, all that is really in God's hands, but when you feel so called towards something...called to pray for, support, embrace, and get inspired for someone else's vision...but never get to take part in it...it's a lonely thing. There's a part of me that hates standing in the shadows. Growing up, I always thought I'd be somewhere right up front, basking in the spotlight. But obviously that's not God's plan for me.

I've gotten a lot of confirmation from God that I'm on the right track lately...but no real direction on where to take it. More of like...here it is, little by little, step by step....take it slowly & you will see Me unfold the plan... It's quite exciting on one hand, but on the other, it requires a LOT of patience. (Sigh.) When things take years & years to come to fruition, perseverance and BOLD faith are very much required. So I need to cling tightly to my Father during these times. Let Him hold me. Let Him be all I need. And try not to do anything out of selfish ambition. Or desire attention for my obedience. Or rush things along. It's a hard calling that has GREAT rewards when they do come, but the fulfillments are few & far between. I have peace in knowing that I am holding up the arms of a great mouthpiece of the King when it becomes weak. And knowing that I am making a difference. But beyond that, it's just more of the ordinary every day normalcy. I get bored pretty easy. Contentment is not my strong suit. I tend to be restless. And the more I taste, the more restless I become.

God is doing great things. I have no clue what the future holds. But I am learning to rest in my part in destiny.

Matthew 6:6
But when you pray, go away by yourself, shut the door behind you, and pray to your Father secretly. Then your Father, who knows all secrets, will reward you.