calling OUT

Oh God...this thing You've called me to is getting the best of me. Relentless attacks and endless struggle. I am SO CLOSE to giving up...in fact I LONG to be free more than ever before. I've been beaten up, bruised, and broken and I don't know how much more my heart can take. I need some sort of release from the hold this has on me. But I DON'T KNOW how to get there...and I don't sense any answers from You. It's so back and forth, so unreliable...I'm floundering and falling fast with nothing to hold on to. Please show me Your purpose in this. It's been SO long. Please give me some peace. And please bring answers quickly to calm my aching heart!!