Oh there's such a big part of me no one knows about. Things I struggle with that no one could possibly understand. Parts of me that are ugly, that I don't even wanna admit to myself.
God has been so good to me...confirming things lately in sweet and miraculous ways that I can't even comprehend. Things that I've cried out to Him for. I've been experiencing many "suddenlys." Like when you long for something & ask God for it over & over again and then after days/months/years of waiting...BOOM there it is. Suddenly!
But why can't I be grateful and move on? Why must I harp on things & want more, bigger, better things? Why is there this part of my heart that will never let go?
I realize none of this makes sense. It shouldn't. I'm just venting for myself I guess. But I would appreciate prayers for breakthrough, which is my OWN doing, breaking through my own stubbornness! There are things I want and crave that I have never understood. God is up to something in my life. I need clear wisdom and discernment to know what that is, to know where I'm going, and how to get there! What do I need to let go of once & for all...and what do I need to just accept and cling to, because God is working in ways that are shaping my future...
Even when it makes no sense at all...
10 months ago
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Although I am struggling to find words to pray lately...I will return the blessed favor you have given to me. I really appreciate all of the prayers offered to me by so many, because I simply have lost the ability to speak words.
This will be my challenge...to pray for another. I look forward to overcoming....both me and you.
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