I'm always caught in a crazy mix of being content with where I am, and reaching for something more. I know God wants more for me in some areas, but I've been stuck in a holding pattern of not being sure how to get there for so long. In pondering all this today, I wrote this...
my heart is torn
existing here
but longing
reaching for
what I cannot see
things I cannot control
draw this to me
time & time again
when I run
it finds me
when I forget
it reminds me
and I wonder
will it ever end
sweet relief would be
fulfillment of my dreams
but release never comes
seeing the end
but never reaching
never finding the path
never knowing the way
so I sit and wait
and rest in You
I do write songs, but this isn't one of them...it's just random feelings & emotions that come out in a poetry of sorts...random poetry I like to call it. ;) Anyway, I've written lots of stuff like this, some eventually get tweaked & formed into songs that RHYME (cuz in my world, songs must rhyme :) )...but some stay in this form, just for me. Somehow I know I'm gonna want to go back some day & remember what I felt during these times.
Hopefully when God's promises are fulfilled. :)
10 months ago
2 comments:
I love how you are able to express with beauty what we all feel at one point or another. You know that my current journey is similar to your passage. I love how you have put my longing into such a beautiful rhythm.
Thank you for being a vessel of God's true beauty :o) and not allowing the enemy to steal the beautiful gift that God has given you.
oh girl...your encouragement means the world to me!! I knew this would speak to you too...I thought of you as I read through what God had spoken through me! He will complete the amazing work He began in us...I pray it will be soon...and I pray we can always walk through this journey together, because I deeply cherish your friendship!!
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